shout out to all the gifts, cards and LOVE from the homies

praise and love shout out.

Thanks to Nicky Smolter, Amanda Baker, Alexandra Treff-F, my Cousin Demica, Sister, brandon smith,  and all the other homies who have sent cards, gifts, time spent and support.  Thank you so much.

I appreciate yall as i continue to recover.

how the handicapped girl takes out trash ....

I cant lift over ten pounds in general and by scription.

thats ok.
I have a cane that helps me get the trashcan open in the alley.  and then i slide the bag up the side and tip it in.
it takes more time then you think.

but it is those little things that im like, I can do it.

and NO one likes taking out the trash.  well try it handicapped

and yes i do recycle people.....

a good food day looks like this

The Ability to have breakfast: hard boiled eggs, breakfast meat, hash potatoes, juice tea.

snack: a biscuit

Dinner: rice and veggies with two shrimp

Snack  : watermelon

bonus: orange soda!



sounds so insane right.  but I feel like I won

Eureka! She is handicapped but not useless

I spent saturday morning trying to figure out what was wrong with my garbage disposal.  I googled and youtubed.  BRAIN.

and was worried that my limited mobility would prevent me from fixing it, or attempting.

well, of all the shitty things that happened this week, I took one back for #teampatty
and fixed that bitch.

yes. Slay.

I would like to thank Lisa Hayes for moral support and Liza Toher's influence to make me force myself to design a plan that worked with my limited body but still execute the task #engineering

"hurts like hell" pain is relative

People always seem really shocked when I tell them:
A. pain is every day
B. I dont take the pain meds
C. repeat.


Pain is something that you can learn to live with.  it is because other pains are too much to bear.

"Someone Tried to Runaway with All my Stuff"

I know and love this quote from "for colored girls..." but for real someone tried to run away with all my stuff.
My house had an attempted burglary Friday evening.  I was traveling home.  They were using a window and tripped my alarm.

you just think, its just one more thing i dont need

Life happens.
Im safe.  the most precious thing to me at my house is my computer.  and it was cool

Police came, thanks Officer Roberts.

Get alarms for your house and your stuff people.  worth the bill every month

MinniJean and the Reflection of Self (Little Rock Nine)

I got to have dinner with MinniJean and we ordered the same cocktail and laughed at the same ratchet jokes and she spoke her WHOLE mind.  It reminded me to not be silenced by anyone despite adversity.  Although I am tired of constant policing of my voice and my body and my broken health I thank G-d for allowing me to have these moments of clarity.  In Peace a Voice comes through and reminds me that I am not alone even when I feel alone.  There is this 74 year old activist still rocking and making a difference in the world.  She is unbossed.  Lord let me walk like that. And not wait until I am older and more tired to do so.

Minnijean Brown Trickey made history as one of the Little Rock Nine, the nine African-American students whodesegregated Little Rock Central High School in 1957. The world watched as they braved constant intimidation and threats from those who opposed desegregation of the formerly all-white high school.

Minnijean Brown, the eldest of four children of Willie and Imogene Brown, was born on September 11, 1941, in Little Rock (Pulaski County). Her mother was a homemaker and nurse’s aid during the crisis, and her father was an independent mason and landscaping contractor. She is the sister of the late Bobby Brown, who was the president ofBlack United Youth (BUY) in Arkansas in the late 1960s.

Although all of the Nine experienced verbal and physical harassment during the 1957–58 academic year at Central, Trickey was first suspended, and then expelled, for retaliating against the daily torment: specifically, she called one of her tormenters “white trash.” On February 17, 1958, she moved to New York and lived with Drs. Kenneth B. and Mamie Clark, African-American psychologists whose social science research formed the basis for the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP) argument in the Brown v. Board of Education of Topeka, Kansas case, which held that segregation harmed the self-esteem of African-American children. She graduated from New York’s New Lincoln School, a private progressive school in Manhattan, in 1959.

Brown married Roy Trickey, a fisheries biologist, on September 21, 1967; they have six children. She attended Southern Illinois University and majored in journalism. She later moved to Canada with her husband, where she received a BSW in Native Human Services from Laurentian University and an MSW in social work from Carleton University in Ontario, Canada. The couple divorced in the mid-1980s.

Trickey is a social activist and has worked on behalf of peacemaking, environmental issues, developing youth leadership, diversity education and training, cross-cultural communication, and gender and social justice advocacy. She served in the Clinton administration as Deputy Assistant Secretary for Workforce Diversity at the Department of the Interior from 1999 to 2001. She has taught social work at Carleton University in Ottawa Canada and in various community colleges in Canada.