What is strength if you have never been weak?

preparing for rehab this morning was hard because my energy level was so low.
People who know me know i basically create energy.
I basically divide cells into themselves
I literally turn hydrogen into helium


but now its like a black hole, that somehow I had used all this energy and it turned in on itself.
(perhaps my friend chris the astrophysicist would give me hope and tell me all my energy is cold dark matter now, ha)

but for real.

I DONT REGRET.  I been asked do I regret not being more selfish.

I say I would regret not being fully who I am.
so I will take days that I have low energy.  Fake some of it.